After a recent trial where it looked like we were going to get a blessing we felt we really needed, but then at the last moment we didn’t get it in a rather upsetting way, I was pretty angry with God. Felt like He’d abandoned us. Funnily enough, His answer to me on how to move forward was gratitude, that I needed to be thankful. That answer made me mad too, at first, because we didn’t get the blessing so what did I have to be thankful for? Also, I generally do see myself as a grateful person. When someone does something for me, I make a big effort to let them know I’m grateful for it, even when the thing was just the thought of doing something. But…that was kind of the point of what God wanted to teach me. I’m quite grateful when someone does something for me, but apparently I’m pretty ungrateful to God when He doesn’t give me what I expected. I ignore everything else He has given me when He doesn’t give me more. And while it’s not like I’m entirely ungrateful for what I already have – there are several blessings I always thank Him for in daily prayer – when I pitch a tantrum because I didn’t get something else, it certainly makes it seem like maybe I wasn’t actually grateful for those other blessings. So finding gratitude for more elements of my life and trying to remain thankful is my current lesson and goal.