I’m going to let you in on a little (embarrassing) secret: I’ve never been very happy with the way I look.


couple laying sittingI think I always assumed that once I got married, I’d be all confident because I’d finally found someone who thought I was attractive enough to look at for eternity.


Spoiler alert: getting married did not resolve all of my insecurities. Like, at all. Turns out, that change has to come from within or something. Ugh. Stupid.


As a kid, I remember reading a book one of my older siblings owned: A Crash Course in Teenage Survival by John Bytheway. I don’t remember much, but there’s one thing that always stuck with me — John Bytheway’s commentary on our sources of confidence.


He talked about placing our confidence in the wrong place: our social status, our boyfriends/girlfriends, our intellect, etc. (And don’t quote me on this, because I was like, 10. My memory is okay, but I’m no elephant (although admittedly, I think that would be really cool); this is just the general gist!) Basically, the point Brother Bytheway made was that if we place our confidence in external, variable sources, that confidence is bound to eventually come crashing down.


If your confidence is based on our friends, what happens when you lose a friend or that friend says something unkind to or about you? If your self-worth is based on a boyfriend, what happens when you two break up? If it’s based on your grades, what happens when you do poorly on a test?


On the other hand, what is the one thing in our lives that never changes, sways, or succumbs to negativity? God. His opinion of us never changes, regardless of if we gain 15 pounds or our forehead is too wide or (insert insecurity here). He sees us for our worth, and He recognizes our physical and spiritual beauty. If our confidence comes from Him, it won’t falter because He doesn’t falter.


Now I feel a little hypocritical writing this because the truth is that I’ve never really placed my confidence in God, not fully. I place my confidence on what other people think of me (or, more accurately, what I assume they think of me). And when you do that, enough is never really enough. When you’re heavier than you want to be, you’ll berate yourself for not being thinner. But when you finally are thin, you’ll find other things to be unhappy about — your nose, your hair, and so on.


So here is what I’ve found: you can read Max Lucado’s phenomenal short story “You Are Special” a dozen times, scour countless articles about how confidence must come from God in order for it to be sustained, and watch Dove ads until the cows come home about the realities of airbrushing and how no one actually looks that perfect. But in my experience, doing any and all of those things will never be enough. The only way to true, lasting confidence is to turn to our Father in Heaven and seek His approval rather than the world’s.


In my darkest moments of self doubt and frustration, there are two things I remember that allow me to feel a glimpse of God’s love for me and recognize my own self worth.


First, I recall crying to my father (the fount of all knowledge) in my early teens about how unattractive I was; about how no boy would ever like me. He then said, “Amy, remember how your sister gave us homemade Christmas ornaments this year?” I nodded. “Well, how do you think she would feel if you said, ‘Thanks, this is nice — but the snowman’s nose is too big and his scarf is the wrong color and his buttons aren’t lined up perfectly’?”


I blanched. I would never say anything like that about something my sister worked so hard on! “It would hurt her feelings,” I replied sheepishly. My dad continued, “Do you think maybe that’s how Heavenly Father feels? I think it hurts Him to hear you talk about yourself — His creation — that way. He spent all of this time helping to shape you and make you who you are, with the qualities you have. And He is perfect! He doesn’t make mistakes.”


I am not a mistake. My self-perceived big nose isn’t a mistake. My too-thick thighs aren’t a mistake. I am exactly the way I need to be. And so are you.


Secondly, I had a friend share with me a poignant experience she once had. Struggling with depression and self assurance, she visited a therapist at LDS Family Services. After the therapist talked with my friend for a while, he commented something along the lines of, “You know, loving ourselves is a way of praising God. Being happy with who you are, including how you look, is a way of recognizing His hand in your creation and your life.”


Being dissatisfied with our appearance and our imperfections is a tool of the adversary. He wants us to place our confidence anywhere but God, because he is miserable and doesn’t want any of us to be happy. But God wants us to love ourselves, and it hurts Him when we don’t.


To read more of Amy’s articles, click here.

So if you’re like me and genuinely struggle to see yourself the way He does, ask for it. Over and over again, not just once. Pray to know how you personally can love yourself more. See a therapist, ask your friends for help, turn to the scriptures and prayer and the temple. Do what you need to do to recognize your worth.


I want to love myself more! I want to be happy with the way I look. And God wants that for me too, just as He wants it for you.


It’s time we look upward, not outward, for approval.

About Amy Carpenter
Amy Carpenter is the site manager and editor for LDSBlogs.com. She served a full-time mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Denver, Colorado, where she learned to love mountains and despise snow. She has a passion for peanut butter, dancing badly, and most of all, the gospel.

Copyright © 2022 LDS Blogs. All Rights Reserved.
This website is not owned by or affiliated with The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (sometimes called the Mormon or LDS Church). The views expressed herein do not necessarily represent the position of the Church. The views expressed by individual users are the responsibility of those users and do not necessarily represent the position of the Church. For the official Church websites, please visit churchofjesuschrist.org or comeuntochrist.org.